Im making a new journal...goodbye world...

derflughafen.livejournal.com. B/c you like it

Went running this morning. Saw how desperately out-of-shape I am in. But will persevere. It felt good to know that I am going to be hot in the (hopefully) near future. I need to lose 20lbs in order for me to be in the middle of the healthy range. Ambitious? Not at all. And considering I'll be running from one side of the campus to the other on T/Th, going up and down 5 flights of stairs 4 times on M/W/F I'll be losing them pounds. Was late to class as expected. There just happened to be a helluva lot of traffic on 92 and I got to BART at like 825. Got to class at like 915. I like the teacher. His name is Dr. Shafiq Shamel. How ethnic. There's two immediately hot guys in my class. One is this guy named Miles, who is so hot. I mean, his name is hot. I knew a Miles before, and he was also hot. He's straight though. I just know. Then the student aid is Bryan who is gay (I just know) and he's really cute. He got me a chair b/c they had none left when I got there. A lot of girls in the class. Im nervous. It's hitting me that OMFG. ITS A FOREIGN LANGUAGE.

Visited Walsh who kept getting my name wrong. I figured I'd correct him later. Was very disappointed to see Hilari. I was doing everything in my power to avoid her. I mean, what the hell are the odds that I'd see her? High apparently. I was super pissed. And the girls she was hanging out with left me with her and I screaming on the inside. I really wanted to ask, "So what happened b/w you and Daniel (her ex)?" Just to be a bitch. But I didnt and lied and said I needed books. Hahah. I win. So Im waiting for my next class. Im nervous. Yay.

So I just came from the bank and the teller I use apparently knows who I am. The first time it happened my sister and I thought he read something off of the computer or he saw a driver's liscence b/c he knew our last name. Okay, fine whatever. Then today he goes on to ask me about school and stuff and where Im going and blah blah blah. I was like, okay...anyways. And THEN he asks me if I was still friends with Ryan Courtin. Okay, now it got weird. I was like "Do I know you?" And he's like "Im Thomas" No duh, your stupid name tag is right there. Then I look a little deeper (he has a lazy apparently so I was like fuck. Im not sure where to stare) and then Im like OMFG. So he was this kid Thomas Bauer that I knew in middle school and the first year of hs but then he transferred. He was a huge dick in middle school and then in hs he mellowed out and now he's like whatever. He bobs. Like he doesnt walk, he goes up and down to get where he goes. No kidding, you have to see it. Anyways, it then became really awkward b/c I was like "Sorry, you look so different" Which he did. He grew his hair out so he looks a little like "Wacko-Jacko" minus the pedophilia...I hope. The thing was is that I totally thought he was cute and I was considering giving him my number. Thank jesus I didnt. He now became 1000 times less attractive. DAMN. Fun shit happenin' up in here.

My mom is going on disability until Oct. 8th. Not too bad. And at least this time she's not drugged up or anything. Study study study. Tomorrow is the first day of school. I have to gussy up and look nice. I have to work it so they can't say nuffin'. Also I am meeting someone for coffee that I met on Yahoo! Personals...Im so like eh. Whatever. I really dont care anymore. If this guy doesnt really work out, Im totally giving up on internet dating. It's not worth it anymore and its pretty lame. So yeah. We'll see...

I hate it. I really do. I have like 2 sites that I use for it. Downelink and now Yahoo! Personals which was given to my by my mom b/c she paid for 6 months and realized that she didnt want to use and yeah...it's being swapped around.

All of it seems so retarded. I hate it. People just end up recycling through the same people. It's like, hello, no one is getting any less single if everyone is obviously showing up on each others profiles. I just like getting emails. That is the bottom line. I like receiving messages regardless if it is significant or not. I literally have no other reason to continue with those kinds of sites beyond the fact I like getting email notifications. It's very exciting.

There I said it. I am a huge attention whore.

I know I need to meet someone in person, in real life. That way is so much more genuine and you can actually see if that person looks gross. Online stuff is so stupid. I seriously know one person who has had something come out of it (you know who you are). But even still, that wasnt REALLY internet dating, so that doesnt count. So no one. But I still do it. I frustrate myself. Gah! And Yahoo! has to check EVERYTHING. It's driving me insane. It's not showing my tag-line or photos...so now I look like some desperate crazy person...oh wait.

Im just bored. I want school to start

Nicco has left already. It's pretty sad, but it's like a Manjusha sad. Like Im so appreciative of the time we did spend together and he was telling me he'd be back for Christmas and next summer too so I'll see him again soon. I just wish him the best of luck with everything. Michi was kind of being bitchy about it. Apparently he hadnt kept in that close of contact with her and she got bitter and didnt want to say goodbye and her friends from Irvine came up...I dont know. She was kind of being a bitch about it, I mean like, maybe he was busy? I dont know. I know a phone call doesnt take that long to make, but seriously, dont get so butt hurt abt it

Weekend has been too slow. I want this week to be over with so I can just get a move on with school. Bah

So I just bought my text books. Half of the ones I needed for the Myths of the World class were like not there. Which is annoying. Anyways, I got pretty much what I needed with the moneys I had gotten from Grandmother-house. My favorite of which is entitled "Vorsprung" which is my German one. Excitment abound

Went to the Crib. So Michael was the one who contacted me asking me to go with him to the Crib and right when I got there, he told me he didnt have the card or whatever to get in so he left. So I was pissed and I ended up going it alone. I was freaking out. I called Michi and she calmed my nerves. But the instant I got in there it was Awkward City. Oh god. I was dancing myself and initially I had this radius around me. And then there was this massive orgy behind me and it was awkward and then more awkward and ugh. I wanted to leave after the first 15 minutes but I was pissed that I spent 10 bucks already so I stayed until 1210. Waste of time.

By your's truly. This one is of the leading males in my stories. Please to enjoy

The final product...of not using photoshop for a good year+ Entitled: Scantily Clad

Washing right now. But obviously Im not. Im so bored with my life right now. Summer is going to be done soon. My friends are going to be going back to school. Life is going back to the mundane shit that it normally is. Mom is going to be home for another month or two. I cant wait. I actually cant wait for work though, although it troubles me to be putting so much faith in something I know actually very little about...but I guess if I didnt make that goal I would probably be more depressed than I am right now...hmmm My life is being run by the internet or rather I run my life around the internet. I hate not getting emails about notifications from LJ or Facebook or any other sites Im on...it's ridiculous I know, but it makes me feel like a loser. I end up waiting at 1 in the morning refreshing the page so I can get some junk mail or something...It's annoying trying to go out now b/c I have that enforced 100 cerfew. The most exciting thing that has happened to me so far is re-watching Cowboy Bebop and downloading The Cardigans sophomore album, Life, which took literally 2 days to buy...my god. I need DSL. Next week I need to buy books for classes...joy. Ugh, I pretty much have been sitting on my ass for 4 months since May 22nd...June was really good and pretty much everything was good up until July 11th...it was a good run and Im glad, but I just want things to end. I need a bf